"all little girls should be told theyre pretty,even if theyre not"- m.Monroe

=(

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 00:23:25 GMT

for the past 2 sweetest days i've had a boyfriend here with me. i know its not like that big of a holiday but it means alot to be with the person you care about on days like today. and i cant. ive been so blah all day and now more than ever i understand how danielle felt all that time. wow props to you dani. anyways i dont wanna talk about that anymore.

happy effing sweetest day =(

so for the past week i stayed after school off & on to to stuff for mooney week. thursday night me mare suz and katelyn went to the scaregrounds. walked into that place extremely scared. went on the hayride and it was umm not scary. but still semi-fun. adele, kevin, dave, ryan, zach, chris & SEAN PAULIE!!!!!!! showed up. zach said he wasnt gonna do anything but i made him so me and mare got his ticket for the haunted house. then all his friends went on the hayride. oops sorry zachy --you had to go w/ us. so we waited in line blah blah it was scary in there. at least freddy wasnt in the little waiting part this year. i was pretty calm. but yeah so we all lined up..zach mare me suzanne katelyn. uhh suzanne was strangling me with my hoodie string. i was bent over with my arms around mare and katelyn was screaming that people were touching her. zach was trying to lose us and mare was getting mad. i had my eyes closed for most of it. i saw the girl from the ring, emily rose and some clowns. and some chain saws aaah. and like stupid people who werent scary but i was still scared. and yeah that was that. i kinda wished i was there with one other person though. grrr i hate distance.

katelyns mom brought us to BK and we saw 7th & 8th graders & mikey and talked to them. yelled at them. whateverrr. went home & called andy.

friday didnt have school. andy called and i talked to him til he got to school. slept & texted on and off. didnt fully wake up til 12:07. cut the grass. i missed dawsons creek. thought about alot of stuff. threw away some boxes that were under my bed. it was def. time for that. mom came home and we went to la dentista. and like he said this wierd stuff about my teeth and like idk, i have to get these wierd xrays next time i go. but my teeth still feel really cool. and he said i'll never ever get cavaties in my life, ever. because i had too much flouride when i was little. hah but you dont care.

later went to the game with katelyn. umm what happened to our fans. it was so boring. like seriously, pathetic. the turnout was embarrassing and i couldnt believe it. i know its probably because we keep losing, and well we lost again last night. but still. i was mad. talked to corey&justin and then waited for suzanne then watched the game then left. came back to my dads, katelyns mom picked her up. bye katelyn, shes in columbus til sunday. umm so then i went to bed and missed andys 11 calls that i feel really bad about.

today i woke up and went to school to decorate for mooney week. and it took us forever and i swear if anyone messes up the lobby i will personally kick their ass. it is so cool. its literally a jungle. its just sweet. then came home and just was here. went to the mall to do some things. and now im here, bored. mkay bye.

in conclusion..
sweetest day sucks - unless ursuline starts winning they will have NO support - the scaregrounds are only fun when you have a boy with you - making a jungle is hard work.

later dude.

Wed, 12 Oct 2005 21:11:11 GMT

its been sooo incredibly long. i remember when i was obsessed with this thing & updated every single day. well things are different now. like everything is. i think i've changed alot and i never did deal well with change. i dont talk at all w/ people who i used to always hang out with. i miss them way alot. me and mare finally worked everything out. but i just feel wierd about everything. im always so stressed out and i hate it. im not patient anymore and i hate everything. i hate the situation with andy and how i cant see him. & it just gets harder

sometimes i wish things were how they were last year. even though we were all stupid freshman, i think we had way more fun and idk its wierd. its so wierd how last year everyone was friends and then this year everyones like back to only being with their gradeschool people. maybe im the only one that noticed that? but theres some people/1 person that i miss in particular and i dont know. i hate this stupid thing but im so bored so im just writing. i havent been in a good mood lately at all and i just wannt talk to someone who doesnt know exactly whats going on with me. like someone who wont have a bias approach and would just see it from the outside. and i know i sound so wierd but im in a wierd mood. and part of the reason why i dont like writing in this is because it reminds me of last year because i wrote constantly. yeah i know--i just said that i wish things were how they were last year.

im pretty damn messed up.

hmm

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 20:06:26 GMT

stole this from dani
im still thinking about it
& if i think its true & such

You aren't going to be her first, her last, or her only. She's loved before, she will love again, but if she loves you now what else matters? She's not perfect. You aren't either and the two of you will never be perfect. But if she can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to her and give her the most you can. she isn't going to quote poetry, she's not thinking about you every moment, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you could break. Don't hurt her, don't change her, don't expect more than she can give. Don't analyze. Smile when she makes you happy, yell when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there. Love hard when there is love to be had.

do ittttt mkay? ♥

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 01:54:21 GMT

1. Reply with your name/nickname and I will write something random about you.
2. I will then tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I will pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I will say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I will tell you my first memory of you.
6. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll then ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your LJ.

interesting.. but so true ♥

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 22:58:38 GMT

50 THINGS ABOUT BOYS GIRLS SHOULD KNOW

1. Guys hate sluts. (belive it or not)

2. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?"
- two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering
on the phone.

3. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they
go to sleep they always think about the girl they
truly care about.

4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little
about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward
pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all
and makes it up as he goes. (i belive gils do this too )

5. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice
him.

7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend
or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the
let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-
how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you
talk to.

9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're
still loved.

10. Don't talk about your guy friends to your
boyfriend.

11. Guys get jealous easily.

12. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to
think.

13. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know
what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a
conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And
he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess
about it trying to figure it out.

14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they
usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really
like.

15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls
presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their
lunch money for a week. But it never works because
guys are always hungry so they end up asking the
parents for money anyway.

16. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

17. Guys are very open about themselves.(yea riiight, maybe after we beg 5 times to get u to open up)

18. It's good to test a guy first before you trust
him. But don't let him wait too long. (oldest mistake in the book)

19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help
from about his problems with you may end up being
admired by your boyfriend. ( jus dont let them get too close)

20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just
needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give
advice.

21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is
when he teases you.

22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are
serious in your relationships.

23. Guys will brag about anything.

24. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls.
We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes
you.

25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl
does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy
think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it
meant.

26. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys.
Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's
confused, then we're all confused.

27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book
for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about
relationships.

28. Try to be as straightforward as possible.

29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's
too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and
hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.

30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the
girl, he will think about it for the next couple days
or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

31. No matter how much guys talk about asses and
boobs, personality is key.

32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance
books that girls read and take as their basis of
experience.

33. Guys worry about the thin line between being
compassionate and being whipped.

34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's
probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl,
he really is. Guys rarely say that.

36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just
actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

37. Guys don't really have final decisions.

38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.
It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you
know something's up. ( those are always the best conversations too )

39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is
never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's
probably jealous and likes you.

40. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second,
he's definitely thinking something.

41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

42. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they
do.

43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your
naked eyes.

44. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give
up easily.

45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear
perfume. Just not too much.

46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about
guys. ( yes but gilrs talk about guys more respectfully then guys talk about girls)

47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on
even more.

48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have
unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but
somehow are drawn even more to them.

49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a
girl's mind for a day. And he would want his left nut
back after that day was up.

50. No guy can handle all his problems by his own.
He's just too stubborn to admit it

so lately..nothing really..mares house not going into detail..school starts thursday =/. not too thrilled. im staying at my dads til wednesday & yeah. well alrighty i guess i'll try to update more often

sugar we're goin down

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 19:20:07 GMT

havent wrote in a while. sue me.

um well school starts in about 2 weeks. less than 2 weeks. i hate school. well i hate my school. i hate our school's school spirit. WOOOOHOOO GOO IRISH !!!!!? ---yeaahh.

so i've been babysitting alot lately. bikerides & random stuff with katelyn. new obsession--Shirley Temples. well i was always obsessed with them but she never had one til i made her get one @ Avalon Gardens. mmm so on wednesday rob started doing our yard. it was some hard shit. i helped a little. but yeah then i was done. yesterday was thursday and he came back over to finish and my brother helped and i cleaned my room. i was supossed to get my hair done but they couldnt get me in at the only time i could go. bummer.

so i went shopping w/ katelyn. got some stuff. im re-obsessed with refuge perfume. best scent ever. i got some clothes and decided i didnt like the outfit i was wearing so i went in the dressing room at pennys and changed. i figured thats the only place where people wouldnt remember you were wearing something different. then i bought this orange necklace that i had to have because well i just did.

then her mom dropped us off at applebees and we got a table--i wanted a booth. oh well. and we waited for mare. we got shirley temples =). we decided to be cool and order an apeitizer(spelling?). so mare got there and we all caught up and ordered and stuff. and that kid that looked like marc kept looking at us because we kept looking at him because he looked like an older blonde version of marc. hhahaha that was funny. all mare got was mozarella sticks. katelyn got fiesta lime chicken because its a "fiesta in your mouth!". and i got chicken teriyaki. and well they brought me chicken alfredo and thats not what i ordered and you
d think i was like royalty because all these people came up to me saying their sorry blah blah. i didnt really care.

ANOTHER ROUND OF SHiRLEY TEMPLES PLEASE =)

oh yeah--never "pop your collar" around mare.
..."WHAT ARE YOU?..ELViS?!"

so then my stuff came and we talked and took pictures and stuff. then we paid and waited for katelyns mom. went to coldstone for ice cream. best freakin ice cream ever. katelyn got strawberry and got butterfingers in it. iccck not too sure about that. i got mint w/ oreos in it. mare got a smoothie and it wasnt too good. she picked sweet cream as her ice cream. poor kid. haha

thennnn we went to girard to bring mare home. then they brought me home and SUPRISE. the yard was finished. it looks so pretty. then i talked to madre for a little and got on here and talked to mare about her sister's lovelife. hahahaha. mmmkay then i put in the shining and called andy and that was just a bad phone conversation. i feel bad now but neither of us felt like talking. soo we hung up & texted for a little. i got too scared watching the shining so i took it out and fell asleep.

then this morning i woke up at 7:18 and saw that andy called 8 times before football. i felt sooooo bad. i hate when i dont hear my phone ring. cleaned a little. texting a little. shower. got the makeup in the mail that mom ordered. that sheercover stuff thats on tv. welllll it most definately works and im using it for life. it takes long to put on but its worth it. now its boy meets world and who knows what tonight.

later losers =)

♥you

I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle in your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend the day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible. -When Harry Met Sally

i love that movie

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 02:24:38 GMT

so lately..
geneva w/ mom dylan katelyn and derek. dont feel like going into details
then wisconsin for uncle jeff & kristen's wedding. it was cool. about a 12 hour drive though. now im home. and not exactly the happiest girl in the world. i dont want this to turn into some big 'ah i hate my life feel bad for me' kinda thing. because i havent done that forever. but its nice to get your feelings out when you cant tell them to anyone. i dont really know what to do anymore. on top of all this shit going through my head, school starts in like 3 weeks i think. yeah im not happy about that either. that means summers over and so is my hopes of what this summer would be. basically, the only thing i wanted from this summer-im not gonna get. im pretty much crushed. but oh well. thats life. i just dont know anymore. im going bye kids.

i need someone who will:

tell me we're like corey and topanga.
give me his favorite sweatshirt.
call me at 3am and ask me what i'm doing.
tell me he couldn't fall asleep because he was thinking about me, and he needed to hear my voice.
text me every morning before school saying "Have a great day babe I love you".
whisper something sweet in my ear.
take me to a concert to see his favorite band.
not get embarrassed to tell me he loves me in front of his friends.
tell me I'm too beautiful to cry and he'll kiss every tear.
always make me feel better because he knows the perfect things to say to me.
talk about me to his friends
stay up with me all night when im sick.
stop when we walk and pick up a flower and put it behind my ear.
love everything about me and tell me that I'm perfect.
always make me laugh about silly fights.
not get mad for making fun of him because we crack up at every bit of it.
tell me he'd die without me.
surprise me by bringing me over my favorite food when I'm having a bad day.
think I was beautiful if I dressed so crappy it was classy.
would hold me when i cry ..
introduce me to his friends as the coolest girl he?s ever met.
have contests with me of how far we could spit our gum, or how far we could jump off a swing.
take walks with me in the snow, and we'll catch snowflakes on our tongues
grab my waist and kiss my neck.
take pictures with me .
let me go places with his mom.
play tag with me and not care whos watching.
kiss me in the rain.
argue over stupid things with me,
go totally soft when I got sad and apologize.
lay with me outside under the stars.
squirt me with water guns in the house.
love me for me.

I want someone to be there no matter what..always and forever

i think i might have found him <3

its been awhile...

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 01:20:19 GMT

alrighty.

cedarpoint.

-ride up there

were really excited
oh did i mention is was me, katelyn and her padre.
they picked me up at 7
i read some of my permit book; borrrring
matched the street signs in the book to the ones on the road
katelyn was reading
music//sleep
get there

-day one

first ride; raptor-line wasnt too long
why do we always get behind the crazy people?
kickked ass. we love our rides
so then i believe we went to soak city
wasnt too hot; it was bearable
waterslides. lazy rivers. un-fun wave pool. hot guys haha
eventually got done there.
rode a couple rides before checking in at hotel
called my baby<3 while kates dad checked in
hotel room..got changed..umm delanies burrrrnt.
we decided i was a lobster not a crab because crab sounds like a guy
went to east of chicago pizza. cute host boy who is looks like someone we know but we dont know who
pigggggged out
cedarpint!
millenium force-like 2 times i think?
magnum AKA maxum-like alot of times
gemini and mantis-were earlier that day. mantis is painful when youre short
KATELYN WANTED A FROZEN BANANA. we searched that place alllll night for a damn frozen banana. didnt find ANYY
got tired//feet hurt-damn flipflops
watched laser show.pretty cool
back to the hotel. talked to andy a little
shower, food & bed

-day two

well since we stayed in a 'cedarpoint resort' we got early access to the park
dragster, maxair and millenium force were open for us
me and katelyn get in line for dragster; 1/2 hour wait
of course you know we HAD to be in the front seat. so we waited for it
before we knew it, we're sitting in the front seat of that ride, freaking out. and mr.hilles was no where to be found
3 2 1 zooooooooom. hah well thats kinda how it was
screamed our heads off. bestttttt feeling in the world.
120 mph. 400 feet tall. 17 seconds long.
LOVED ITTTTT =)
went to get our picture...CAMERAS ARENT WORKiNG!
we were not happy
decide we'll ride again later.
go find her dad. were gonna ride maxair. didnt feel like waiting.
gary went somewhere. I FOUND THE FROZEN BANANAS! so i bought her one. and one for me. i didnt really like it. katelyn said "its too rich" haha
got in line for millenium i think. sat in the front. kicked ass
at 1:30 we got in line for a fastpass for dragster for between 4-5. so we waited there. it was so freakin hot. got our fast passes.
seperated from her dad..went around for 2 hours. rode meanstreak like twice i think. front seat once.
then we drove those old fashion cars. i thought i was cool =)
then we got these smoothie things and talked and waited til we had to meet her dad at 3:30 i think
3:30 get in line for dragster. w/ fast passes only like 1/2 hour wait. of course katelyn wants to sit in the front because we NEEED a picture of us in the front.
her dad gets on in like 20minutes.
dont you know; it starts raining. cant run that rollercoaster in the rain. starts storming. pouring. people start leaving.
people behind us are fighting. it was interesting. some chick got attitude w/ katelyn. i gave her a look, dont worry kate.
sat down. played i spy. katelyn doesnt know the difference between yellow and orange.
umm theres a really good story with this. but its way long so if you wanna hear it, ask one of us.
but we sat in the car 2 times before we actually got to ride. THiRD TiMES A CHARM =).
and yeah it was great. pictures extremely embarrassing and ew. but funny.
so then we just rode around and stuff. mucho fun.
then at like 1030ish we left. byebye cedarpoint.
oh wait, last ride was raptor, yep FiRST AND LAST RiDE. we decided to wait for the front. so we did.
ummm bugs are gross =(. in the picture im making an ewwwww face. it was nasty. when i got off i had dead bugs on my white shirt. yeah ew.
so then we left. we went to BK and went up to the door. and it wouldnt open. and there were people in there. and this chick is like saying something but we dont know. we think we're retarded because the door wont open. then we tell her dad to open it. the girl puts up a sign that says "DiNiNG AREA CLOSED" soo excuuuuuse us miss bitch.
we go through the drive through.
oh yeah i forgot, we hit a frog. hahah ew
mkay so then i slept on the way home. got here. called andy. and went to bed.

and so lately i've been just shopping like a lot and working and we're leaving on saturday for geneva. katelyn and derek are coming with us. sooo it'll be fun. my phone will most likely not work. not sure though. it might. umm yeah so thats it. few festivals here and there. dylan left last friday for canada w/ my dad so its just been me and my mom. not too bad i like it. alrighty bye guys =)

prettty cute <3

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 21:17:07 GMT

i thought this was cute..i'll write about cedarpoint when i get home tonight..it was suuuuperfun

31 Things Boys Should Know About Girls Written by a boy. After years of experience.

1. Whatever you do, don't just show up at their house... they run around in their underwear just like we do.

2. Don't cheat on them. It may seem foolproof, but girls tell each other everything about everything. Trust me, they WILL find out and you will be mud.

3. Beware of every single male relatives and all guy friends. Any of them would kick your butt at the drop of a hat, and a lot of them wouldn't even wait for the damn hat.

4. Never miss an opportunity to tell them they're beautiful.

5. Don't refuse to kiss in front of your friends. If they laugh at you, it's because they're jealous.

6. If they slap you hard, you deserved it.

7. Don't be afraid to touch them if you want to. If they're going out with you in the first place, it's because they like being in your arms.

8. You can be dirty minded with them in private, really... most of them are not offended by it...

9. Not all of them eat like birds, a lot of them can eat like whales.

10. Most of them don't mind paying half of everything, but they do discuss these things with their friends. Realize that if you make your girlfriend pay half all the time, everyone will know about it and your friends will know you're a pussy. --

11. Do you honestly need all your money that much? Be a man, pay all the time!

12. Every girl should eventually get three things from her boyfriend-- a stuffed animal, one of his sweatshirts, and a really pretty ring. Even if it's not a serious relationship.

13. Make sure she gets home safely as often as you can. If you're dropping her off, walk her to the door. If you aren't dropping her off, call to be sure she's home safely.

14. If a guy is bothering her, it is your right to kick the crap out of him.

15. If you're talking to a female friend of yours, pull your girlfriend closer.

16. Never, ever slap her, even if it's just in a joking way. Even if she swats you first, and says, "Oh, you're so dumb!" or something, never make any gestures back.

17. Go to a chick flick once in a while. She doesn't care whether you enjoy it or not, it just matters that you went.

18. You're dead meat if you can't get along with their pets, parents and best friends. Be prince charming to their friends, Mr. Polite to their parents, and make sure to be nice to their animals.

19. Don't flirt with their moms or friends... that's just freaky.

20. Don't be freaked out by PMS. It's not gross, and it really does make them feel like crap, so be understanding.

21. If you don't like the way they drive, you do it.

22. If you're officially dating, and you're introducing her to your friends, you'd better damn well introduce her as your girlfriend.

23. Don't stress where you go for every date. They really only want to be with you.

24. If they complain that something hurts, rub it for them without being asked.

25. Girls are fragile. Even if you're play fighting/wrestling, be very gentle.

26. Memorize their birthdays. You forget her birthday and you're basically screwed for life.

27. Don't marinade the cologne.

28. Don't give her something stupid for her birthday or Christmas or Valentine's day. It doesn't have to be expensive, but it has to be meaningful. Jewelry is always nice.

29. If you think the relationship isn't going to last, don't wait to find out. It will only hurt you more if you draw it out.

30. After you've been dating for a while, realize that they really have started to trust you. When you have a girlfriend who truly trusts you, you have a lot more responsibility, privilege and control than you would think. Be careful with it, most guys would kill for that kind of power, and it can be lost in a nanosecond.

31. Don't ever do anything wrong (well, not anything). Girls remember things for life and anything you did wrong will be used against you in the future.

its been awhile

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 19:13:37 GMT

soo whats new..i went to punxsy last saturday. drammmaaa. but lets not get into that. it was alright i guess. soemtimes i think it wouldnt be too bad living up there. umm came home sunday and went to a family party. it was alright. came home and whatever. monday was the 4th so i went down to the parade with katelyn. it was alright. kinda hot. walked back up to my house. went to aunt pams for moms family party. swam and ate. dad picked us up there. went to his dads for the bianco party. uncle keith aunt joan lakyn lauren and alexis ended up coming down so it was fun. gina and her friend came over too. uncle kev april nick & alec. yep the whole gang. swam and ate. swam some more. grandpa did his whole big firework show. it was good. everyone left. dad brought us home. tuesday stayed here and it stormed. games were cancelled so no work. went out w/ mom to get stuff for vacation. we got so many beach towels. haha theyre cute. oh we're going to geneva and katelyns coming. aaah it'll be fun. oh and like 5 more days til we go to cedarpoint w/ her padre. yessss that'll be fun. 2 dayyyssss. well okay i hate this thing and im done.

byee

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 00:31:59 GMT

its been awhile. i dont know whats happened since the last time i wrote .. tomorrows the last day of summer gym. im def gonna miss it. well nick and dan hah. i've ;ayed out w/ katelyn like everyday .. worked a lil .. st.charles festival last weekened w/ katelyn. saw lots of people. got real mad. talked to brad for like the whole night. hes a cool kid. never really talked to him much before. i just want him to twist his tootsie rolls. haha so that sounds bad. umm went skating for summer gym last week. it was alright. today we went bowling. hah that was fun. kinda. umm nothings really been happening lately .. went to a couple baseball games .. movies on tuesday night w/ mare katelyn suzanne adele zach kev dave & ryan .. batman begins..pretty good movie. im never sitting by suzanne ever again. then we all walked to bw3s & i got in a freakin bitchy mood. idk what was wrong w/ me. whatever.

mmm so nothing else has been happening. im done writing. bye.

Oh, what I wouldn't give to have you lying by my side..

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 04:11:07 GMT

welll..its been awhile.

second week of summer gym is over. im gonna kinda miss it. ummm not much has happened. went over katelyns one day w/ mare and suz..katelyn came down pretty much everyday and we layed out and stuff..went skating for summer gym one day. nick & "mr.w"--as i call him, love to mess with me. one day nick made me cry. on that same day mr.w kicked a volleyball and it hit me in the face. yeah but its cool. uuum the fantastic four got in a fight. but before that suzanne had a party type thing. fun night. yeah then the fight..haha it only lasted a day. because i'm the peacemaker. =)..mmm a little bit more drama but im over it. on thursday me and katelyn de-weeded the garden thing. wowowowowowow i pulled the biggest effing root ever. i was sooooo proud. you have no clue. it took me forever. but i did it. then later we went to my cousins game. of course we brought katelyn. because thats just how it goes, k? uum in the car on the way there we all noticed how im getting those moles..well i call them beauty marks because mole sounds gross. and i got them allllll over from the sun. hah i was freaking out. the game was fun. we watched some of it. hahaha the blonde kid on jerrys team--def wanted to fix him up with katelyn. buuuutttt noooo--she sees the bad in everyone. no joke.

so we chilled and talked. then we went to a picnic table w/ carlie and lexi and i called andy and wowow. haha they wanted to talk to him of course. so they did. haha it was cute. then he sang his song. juuuuusst a little bit. haha he told carlie "tell delanie im bouncin to my song." hahaha. then the 4 of us had a bubble blowing contest.well katelyn and carlie are cheaters. but anyways carlie and i won. and andy made me save him a piece of gum. haha so im going to. annnd yeah. then we left and mom flipped out. i did performances in the car. sorry people, i dont re-enact. you had to be there for it. hahaha funnny.

thenn blah blah. mom bought me and katelyn tanning chairs. so i was happy.

today was boring. gym. home. katelyn & tanning. wierd neighbor coming over. dylan putting spider on my back. katelyn leaves. i go to work. now im at dads. yepp..maybe st.charles festival tomorrow? whooo knows. i gotta work 10-2 though =/. oh well i'll live

p.s.yeah guys thanks for remembering its my half birthday =(

im a thief--stolen from mare

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 16:55:58 GMT

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when you left i lost a part of me .. yeah i know i hate that song

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 22:45:05 GMT

whatever. summer gym started monday. nothing special. not going through it. work at 5. lots happened in between there but its all good now.

tuesday had summer gym again. blahhh. then suzannes dad brought us to mare's house. mares dad made us pizza. then we went upstairs in her room and read all her notes from him9. pretty interesting. andy called but i was boring him because i like reading notes and he thinks thats wierd. i read him like all my notes from this year. so i guess he had enough soo yeah i didnt wanna bother him anymore.

so then we finally get in the pool. wow soooo refreshing. haha. i was havng problems with my top. then we see ryan kev and zach..walking around minding their own business..or so we thought. all of a sudden me mare suz and kate are having some private conversations and we get bombed with water balloons..it was pretty funny..for a little..then kev threw in his backpack and ALLLLL these notes from adele go into the water..and he like flips out and doesnt want us to read them. so of course we try opening them but they wont open so we were just messing around. so then he gets my phone and thats when it all went bad..

i started flipppppping out. then they threw my towel in the water. then they pretended to call andy and said stupid shit. messed around w/ my phone..it was wet..it was broken for like a minute and i flipped out..kev felt kinda bad so he fixed it. they left. thank god. iwas sooooo pissed. i bet the whole neighborhood heard me..i was swearing like never before..on thee top of my lungs. freaking out. but whatever. they left. we had fun. blah blah. then we layed out for like 15mins. then we decided to go for a walk. we ended up stopping right in front of kevins house..haha not on purpose actually so mare could call to ask her dad to bring us to jibjab. he said yeah so we start walking back to her house.

then kev dave and zach come over to us. kevin pops my balloon. and i got sooooo pisssssed. then dave comes over and nails me in the back with that fucking wiffleball bat. okay that shit hurts. i was crying but trying to hold back. that hurt so bad. i have a huuge bruise. uuugh whatever..

so we go back to mares..i throw the bat in the street..her dad brings us to jibjab..we get there..haha NONE of us have make up on. we were soo loud and it was funnnn..then theres this huuuge storm. the lights go out for like a minute..not even that long..it was funny..so we were talkign about if the day after tomorrow happened..uuum then my mom picked up me and katelyn. i fell asleep on the way home..dropped her off..got ehre..i wanted to go to jerrys game but im too tired. so mom and dylan went. and im here.. zach apologized but im still mad. especially furious at you dave. you have no idea how much that hurt. im dead serious. =[

okay and im pissing myself off..bye guys

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Sun, 12 Jun 2005 01:07:50 GMT

hmm so i left off on thursday..

katelyn came down & we layed out. i brought out my notebox and we read sthem and laughed and wow..whatta year. haha yeahh..well since dylan has his little accident mom came home at like 1230..yeahh i was ecstatic. =/. mmm rob came over right before she got there so i was like asdggjklfhgjfdla. and she brought home like 5 bathing suits and just told me to try them on. ookay well thats the dumbest thing ever. 2 were too big and 2 were "too skimpy"..WOWOWOWOW mom. so i only kept one. and it was my fave so im glad it met her approval. =/

so yeah katelyn came down. we layed out for a while and then carlie joey jack and dylan got to my house. dylan has a brace on his leg..the kids found water guns and water balloons and soaked me and katelyn. hah i got a little too mad. i told dylan if he touched me with water one more time i'd manually remove his 12 stiches in his sleep & to sleep w/ his eyes open. yeah im a great sister.

so thenn we pigged out on twizzlers..i told carlie she could tan with us. hah but shes already darker than both of us. because like she looks up to me and she kept walking past so i got her a tanktop and let her lay out with us til her mom got there. we went on the comp..then i had to get ready for work..then katelyn left..aunt laina picked up her kids..i went to work..

bad night at work. just whatever..
came home..called andy..went to bed..

friday..
woke up to a phone callll
kinda just layed aorund all day.
got ready for gina's party...had thee cutest outfit but my mom said i looked "flat" so i had to change my shirt. hah whatta wierdo..
got there..it was alright
ended up staying there til 10:30 when the party was over at 9:30
i wasnt a happy camper. came home w/ dad and crashed in bed. texted a little. fell asleep. texted w/ andys friend so i could get the 411..hah..yeah that was that..

woke up today at 8..shower..hair/makeup..dad brings me up to koch fields..aunt laina calls and says char called and said 10:00 game got cancelled..doesnt need me til 11...so i get a cappuccino..dad brigns me to aunt lainaas house because joey has a game at champ at noon. had super fun w/ the chepke's. joey was walking around in his underwear..and aunt laina goes..JOEY WHY ARE YOU WALKiNG AROUND IN YOUR UNDERWEAR RiGHT iN FRONT OF DELANiE!!?..he says..iTS OKAY MOM SHE LiKES iT.

haha hes like 7. i laughed sooo hard. and then she made us cinnamon//sugar toast..gotta admit--i forgot how good that stuff is..so blah blah..watched spongebob & fairly oddparents..i sang the fairly oddparents song for them because im a beast at it..thennnn i told carlie she was hot so she thought she was cool. haha it was cute..mmm then aunt laina dropped me off..dropped joey off..blah blah..

sooo yeah then work..not going into detail. there were some problems. she can deal with it. i dont care.

dad got me at 530
came here.
did stuff.
called andy
went outside
now im here
borrred
and like 321458754798675 people made me update.
so there =)

love love love

haha semi-funny

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sooo its been awhile..

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 15:03:15 GMT

alrighty so i dont even know where i left off

this is gonna be a long one..

i'll just start with the last week of school.
we had double class periods for finals. except for 5th period which we had everyday. yeah my effing 5th period is algebra.

mondayy.
well we had finals for 1st 3rd and 7th period.
1st pd-spanish. not too bad.
3rd pd-old testament. i got a 93%.
lunch.
5th pd.
7th pd-biology. yeahh bombed that. it was teh hardest test i've ever taken.

then monday night i probably was at work.

tuesday.
had finals for 2nd 4th and 6th period.
2nd pd-studyhall. so 2 hours of just sitting there. fun. acutally i slept the whole time.
4th pd-computers. and since our powerpoints were our finals we had nothing to do. so we watched racing stripes. i was out of it for the first hour. then i watched the rest of the movie. kinda cute.
lunch.
5th pd.
6th pd-literature. yess that was sooo easy. i think i missed one.

and yeah i was at work again that night. hah sara. lets just say it was a baaadd night.

wednesday.
5th pd. finals-algebra. i think i did decent. maybe a high B. hey i can live with that.
then we had to return locks and stuff. well yeah i dont have my lock. so i dont know what that means.
thennnn me katelyn adele and dani went home on the girard bus! aah so fun. we got dropped off at st.rose and then we[me mare katelyn suzanne adele dani kevin zach dave] walked to jibjab. hah it was like 10:30 i think. suzanne and mare got breakfast. then sean and ryan showed up because sean has his wonderful little car. then we decided to go to kevs house.

sooo sean can only fit like 4 people in his car ao he took the first group and me mare katelyn and suz got changed in the bathroom. then we waited in the parking lot. dani and zach were out there too. mare was being irritable and mean so her and katelyn decided to walk to kevs because they didnt feel liek waiting for sean. well right when they leave sean pulls in. i get in the front and then zach drove us. it was pretty fun. youre a good driver zachy.

so we got to kevins and me zach and suzanne went to go find mare and katelyn. haha we found them. walked back to kevins. had a bat fight w/ zach. suzanne called andy. and the three of them talked to him. then we went in the basement and watched them play halo & halo2. mare and katelyn put on a nice little puppet show. hahahahaha actually it was pretty funny.

thennnn at 12:30 we walked to mares and her brother was laying out. hahahahah suzanne was like HIIII JIMMMMMMMYYYYYYY! yeah she broke the sound barrier. and katelyns ears. and then we were in her house and had water. and yeah katelyn used 4 ice cubes. i was mad. youre supossed to use 2. haha. and then suzanne was trying to say her last name in spanish and i lost it. i spit my water alll over the table. and something really funny happened but i cant remember. and mares brother caller her the school slut. ahahahahaha. it was funny. so she told him to put that pussycat dolls song on and me and mare were singing. then we got on the computer and they played 20 questions w/ andy. andy we sang more. then we decided to lay out by her pool. we wouldve swam [is that a word] but suzanne didnt tell us to bring our bathing suits. so we layed out.

heres the order. me katelyn mare suzanne. haha we took turns singing songs. and then right when im singing lady marmalade mares brother comes out. i was like wow thats so embarrassing. and then when i thought he left i was like..oh my god mare how embarrassing was that. and then i see him standing by the pool. i was like SHITT!! so i told suzanne to sing so some of the embarrassment would come off me. so we kept singing.

i called andy and then mi amigas played 200000000000 questions with him. he thinks theyre wierd. i dont blame him. haha. so then mi madre picked me and katelyn up. we got mcflurrys from mcdonalds. haha it was kinda gross. never get oreo. then dropped her off. came home. cleaned my room. went shopping. uuugh dont get me started on that. i didnt get anything. end of story. im not even going through it. came home. shower. got ready. katelyns mom picked me up and katelyn was taking long so we got to talk about her. hah kidding.

then we went to st.joes for their graduation. soo cute. well im kinda jealous. they got to go to jillians after in a freakin esacalade limo. well idk if it was an escalade. but it was soemthin like that and it was sooo nice. our graduation last year was shit compared to theirs. oh well. my mom picked us up. dylan and her told us the story of why the cops are after them. hahaha. funnnny. um then dropped her off..got home. made koolaid. talked to mr.caddell <33. mm then i had to go because mi madre es [gay?] [like?] eso[that]. i told him to call and wake me up this morning. but i thought he'd forget. then i watched meet the parents. hahah funny movie. then i fell asleep.

and guess who woke me up today. i was so happy because he remembered! haha. so i talked to him til he got to football and he had to go. mmm..now im just chillen. i went running at like 9:30 and now i feel reallly energetic. haha. im so glad schools out. i wanted to make rainbow pancakes but we dont have stuff for them. so i settled for a smoothie. cant beat that. my mom just called and told me dylan has to get stitches because he was getting on the bud to go to the picnic and he fell. hahahah. awwe poor kid. soo if this sun ever decides to come out katelyns gonna come down and we're gonna lay out for awhile. right now im watching dawsons creek. andys gonna watch it next wednesday because i want him to..and then hes gonna tell me what happened so i know he really watched it. aww how nice..hes gonna waste his only day off of football on my fave show. hahah.

oh and i forgot..their gradutaion song was "i will remember you" by sarah mcclaghlin. i was like OHHHHH MY GODDDD. i love that song.

oh and me and mom have been fighting like crazy lately. and im not supossed to be texting anymore. because of that stupid pcs vision on my phone. because thats what i have to use to send and recieve texts. i have to go on the internet on my phone and that ran up my bill. so just for the texting was $85. which is okay because i had it to pay rob. but they said if it happens again, the phones getting taken away. and im not supossed to make any long distance phone calls. haha but its obviously free because my bill wouldve been wayyyyyyy higher for all the times i've called him/he's called me and for how long we talk. soo idk..we'll see what happens..

heres my horoscope for today. then i promise im done..

Chill, Capricorn. You can't predict where every relationship is going to head. Enjoy the moment as things unfold. Worrying too much about the future can prevent you from having a great time right here, right now. Take things 24 hours at a time. Not every player will turn into a prince, but a few of them could. Be patient and you'll see for sure.

k bye guys

<33

blah blah blah

Fri, 03 Jun 2005 00:48:43 GMT

so before i start..let me say..zach depaul is an asshole =]
now i know thats gonna cause some problems. but you know what? i dont give a shit. i should post the nice little conversation that i AM printing out to show mare by the way. but if i put it in here i KNOW he'd lose all the "stupid freshmen losers" that he has for friends. yeah he talked about all of us. whatever zachy =]
and lets say this.i didnt start it. i didnt even yell at him for the mare thing. it was all you, buddy.

okay.
hoy es jueves =]

1st through 3rd period was the awards thingy. i got 4. not too shabby. the only one i care about is the highest honors in lit. shes my favorite teacher & thats my favorite class. it was pretty boring. but whatever. then we went to 4th period. computers. people did their presentations. then lunch. haha i did my trick with te grapes. mare found it hilarious. hahahaha it was pretty funny.

joke of the day: how do you catch a school of fish?
answer: with a bookworm.
HAHAHAHA.

"i had to take my ribbon out because it was cutting off the circulation to my brain." ..yeah it was much funnier then.
i wore a ribbon as a headband. lets jsut say it was a little too tight.

so then 5th pd. algebra.sub.yessss. we had mrs.edwards so we went down to her room. umm then 6th. literature. my fave =]. then bio. wowowowowow that movie. "101 wierdest things removed from the human body" or somethin like that. it was..um interesting.

so i rode the bus home today. didnt have my key. so i try getting through the front windows like we used to. but theyre locked. so i chill on the front porch. then i try dylans window. but im too short. so i break through the screen on the back porch because it was kinda torn already and we're getting new ones. and i crawled through the window going into the kitchen. well while i was going through, the window came down on my back. nott too pretty. it hurt.

then i got on here and kinda freaked out. i dont wanna get into it. i guess i over-reacted. sorry andy =[. then me and mr.depaul got into our little fight. eff thaaaat. then up to koch fields. uugh not going into that either. thank god i have tomorrow off. st.brendans fest. anyonee?

texted allllll night to straighten things out. i guess its okay now.

oh and i think my group of friends is starting to be friends again. we're starting to make eye-contact again. haha little steps.

youre all im thinkin of. i praise the Lord above

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 01:12:30 GMT

so im just gonna start with last weekend.

friday-
dont remember school.
candance's wedding reception.
i had a real pretty dress.
for once in my life my hair turned out how i wanted it.
it was a pretty fun time.
i think i called andy. and i danced with carlie and lexi all night.
mom didnt go because dylan was extremely sick.
i wish she went. shes fun at things like that.
then grandma brought me home.
watched this wierd movie with mom and rob.
went to bed.

saturday-
woke up kinda late.
dad was supossed to pick us up at like 3.
he didnt come til 6.
dylan was coughing like no other. i was getting SOO annoyed.
dad finally came. they dropped me off at shoe carnival because i wanted new shoes.
ran into mrs.shipolli, ashley and emily. talked to them.
looked for shoes and wow i didnt find anything i wanted.
when i came to the car with no bags i think dad was mad because they sat in the parking lot for 45mins. oops.
thenn we went to his house. i went on the computer and talked.
phone til it died. <33

sunday-
slept in. i was supossed to be at the fields at 10. woke up at 10:15.
called char and she said i could come at noon.
so i did. stayed til 5ish.
nothing interesting.
geri's house for a pre-memorial day cookout. fun fun =/
her new house is gorgous. i love it.
i decided to take a bubble bath in the jacuzzi tub thing. a bubbcuzi. haha im funny.
that was like an hour and a half. sooo relaxing.
uum...ate..fed the DUCKS. awe they just like come up to her back yard from the pond thing.
called andy and talked til we had to leave.
got back to dads and called him again..
fell asleep on the phone. haha i wonder if he was talking to me and i was knocked out. i'll have to ask him. but he said he fell asleep too..
when i woke up my phone said 'call ended' so yeah.

monday-
i slept in soo late.
got ready and chilled around dads house.
went over geri's again for a picnic.
people were there. it was fun i guess.
umm i think i was on the computer and phone.
geri said some things that made me think.
so then me and andy talked about it later and its all good.
uum i think i did homework.
shower. bed.
actually i think monday was the night me and mom went at it.
huuuge fight.

tuesday-
school was school.
nothing special.
still fighting with mom.
work 5-10=hell.
im so sick of it. uuugh wow
jonothan=hell times infinity.
got to get on the phone for a little <3
oh yeah moms new rule--she gets my phone everynight after 10. so dont call/text me after 10. even though it'll be turned off.

wednesday-
i gave my powerpoint presentation.
i think i did decent-it was on marilyn monroe.
uum oh yeah we had awards day practice. wowowowowow. oh well at least im like right in front of katelyn. it was an interesting day.
work 5-8. not too bad tonight. uum now im gonna go.

bye guys.

i loovveeee youuu =]

i wanna wake up where you are.

Tue, 24 May 2005 23:33:23 GMT

mkay.

friday night-
went over aunts. people were there. ate alottt. talked to gina alot. my moms actually been pretty cool/funny lately.
me: let me have a sip of that
mom: well let me wipe it off first
me: youre my mom
mom: yeah...well you dont know where my mouths been ;)
--hahaha yeah its nasty but funny.
my dad even came. and he stayed longer than we did. he just walked around talking to everyone like him and my mom were still married. it was nice of him and it was cool and everything .. but wierd.
then on the way home on the radio they were talking about "Women who name their breasts" .. and i was so hyper and i was like HEEYY MOM DO YOU NAME YOURS?! she was like .. NO BUT GUYS NAME THEIR DICKS..THEYRE LIKE ..'HEYY LADIES, MEET JAWS' ..hahahah i was dying.

then i think i came home and was on the phone. dont reall remember.

saturday-
up to baseball fields at noon. but i stopped to get a cd first. and i was there til 4:30ish. thank God. i was supossed to be there til 6. but i got outa it. it was a long ass day. i was about to kill people. but yeah got outa there. dad picked dylan up to go to his sports banquet. me and mom went out to my aunts again. all my cousins were there this time. carlie was playing football with the boys and was ignoring lexi. so i decided to play with her. we posed in the front yard and took pictures with my phone. then we did cheers and dances and cartwheels and all that fun stuff. then me and mom left. kate mare and suz went to see star wars. i didnt want to. so i chilled at home. i did a performance for rob and my mom. haha i was soo wired. i have a book filled with cheers from 8th grade. so i had my mom call them and then i'd do them. it was like 10 at night. then i brought my cd player out with the dance music and did the dances. then i was doing front handsprings and shit in the yard. haha. then i read 3 pages of to kill a mockingbird and kate called me and said they were home. so i had mom drve me up bc i was too tired to walk. we talked for a little but eventually all passed out.

sunday-
i was the only one who heard my phone go off in the morning =[ it was our alarm clock. and we ended up sleeping in. they had track practice. we ate..they made fun of rover =[. yes i brought rover. he comes to every sleepover. =] then mom came to get me. dad picked dylan up to go see star wars. we went to church and then shopping for funeral/calling hours outfits. i didnt get anything because me and my mom were fighting the wholllle time. i almost even got an effing dress. it was sooo cute. and it was "appropriate" but we ran into uncle john and he said he didnt think grandpa would 'appreciate it'. so i had a fit. they wanted me to get these outfits that 50year olds would wear. eeffff that. so i got nothing. went to uncle john and aunt angie's for dunner. i had some pretttty good champagne. and remember, it doesnt take alot to make me.. well a little loopy. hah i was bouncing off the walls. we talked and stuff. then we went home. got ready for calling hours. out to girard. got there a little after 4. uuugh. wow. i hate seeing mi familia upset. esp. grandpa. it was a long night. there were sooo many people. there was a 2 hour wait to get INTO the funeral home. after an hour uncle joe to me, jerry, dylan, derek, carlie, lexi, joey, tyler, and jack across the street to dairy queen. across a BUSSYYY street. yeah all of us kids. hah and thats the order of our ages too. so we had that. and it started raining. =/. so we go back blah blah. all my old teachers were there. so i talked to them. mrs.v told me i can be a bitch sometimes. haha.

then at like 730 rob brought me dylan derek and jerry to jibjab becayse we were starving. the little kids went home w/ someone. so that was fun. i talked to jerry. aww hes so cool. i love himmmm.

then we went to grandma & grandpas. i was so tired. i took a 15min nap before everyone got there. thennn i called andrew and talked to him for awhile and then carlie talked to him and then i left. got home..i think i called him again. yeah i did. talked for awhile. went to sleep.

monday-
got up. showered. got ready. funeral home. funeral. cemetary. luncheon thing. home. sleep. read. phone. reds game hahahahaha. read. read read read. was gonna call him back but i was too freakin tired.

tuesday-
school. blah. i won vice president. so thats good. uum spanish test. got outa OT test. didnt have to take lit tests. bio test was freakin hard. nothing really happened. i wanna know why me and dani are like fighting even though we're not.
got home and everyone was having away message fights. hahaha mare goes wayyy tooooo far. hahaha but its fun. QUACK. haha

uum then went out with mom because i needed new make up. i got that cool eye stuff that "intensifies" your eye color. yeah you've seen the commercials. i know you have. hha. okay now i gotta shower. make some phone calls and read.

bye guys.

oh yeah. and last night andy was playing basketball w/ his neighbor. & lowered the thing for him and he went to dunk the ball. and he hit his head on the rim. ahahha. okay its not funny. only i'm allowed to laugh. poor baby =[. he needs stiches but doesnt want them. hahaha

i'd do anything just to hold you in my arms..

Fri, 20 May 2005 21:17:54 GMT

things i like*

-tropical snows

-caramel moolates

-french vanilla cappuchinos

-rain

-singing

-dancing

-cell phones

-texting

-when katelyns fish have sex

-you <3

-baseball games

-baseball players ; ]

-guitars

-music

-cute shirts

-flipflops

-pink

-clouds

-jumping on my bed

-when olivia burps over the phone

-cutting the grass

-the STEEEEELERS

-little kids from ages 1-4. then from ages 9-12.

-puppies

-smooooothies

-spilling smoothies

-hair striaghteners

-green eyes

-wonderwoman .. hahah my hero

-plexico burress & hines ward

-ben freakin roethlisberger

-cameras

-festivals

-bathing suits

-summer

-teh beach

....hmm i may add to this later. haha i guess thats not very many things that i like. so yeah i will add later.

things i dislike*

-hotdogs

-blue icees that turn your teeth blue

-the way i talk

-grass

-lightning

-cell phone bills

-the color yellow

-peanut m&ms

-when guys wear those shirts that i think only girls should wear

-when guys shop at aeropastale

-aeropastale in general .. im not into the whole animal thing

-wierd smelling perfume

-losing

-youngstown =[

-THE BENGALSSSSSSSS

-the browns

-my hair

-my nails

-my attitude

-when people call me mean

so lately nothings been too out of the ordinary. well grams died last night. that put a huuge damper on things. uugh. uum i totally should've gone to the festival on wednesday. because it wouldve saved me alootttt of grief and thinking. because well yeah you know what happened. if i told you. mmm and i still dont know what to do about that. remind me to talk to dani.

had a couple tests this week. thursday was prob the best day. well best night. because i talked to andy seriously all night. and i loveedd it =]. well it wasnt too good that grams died. mom went up to the hospital at like 10ish and didnt get back til 2. so i talked to andy all night. he made me feel 10x better. and not just that. soo much is bothering me and i love getting it off my chest. thanks buddy.

so tonight im going over aunt phillys to ..you know.."gather" with mi familia. that will be THE OPPOSITE OF FUN. -fun. [negative fun].. uuuugh. im not looking forward to it. tomorrow i gotta work 12-6. my phone will def die so im thinking about bringing my charger. oh and a radio. remind me to do that too. and i'll have to talk to jonothan about things. idk .. i just dont think we should do anything.

then me mare suz and katelyn are going to the festival possibly. but def. sleeping over katelyns saturday night. aah we havent had a sleepover in foreverrrrr. then sunday i was supossed to go to star wars. but we changed our minds. so the plan is to go to the play. SUESSICAL THE MUSICAL =]. buuuut calling hours are most likely gonna be on sunday. which is silly. i think they should be monday. because sunday everyones just blah already..ya know?. and then i wont be in school monday for the funeral.

and well you know my grandpa is the principal @ st. joes. well since its his mom that died, Fr.Trimbur called off school monday because she died. i think thats so sweet. very nice thing to do. very priestly haha. and im so afraid of seeing my grandpa tonight. all my friends know him as "our old principal" but i know him as grandpa and im seriously dreading it. i've never seen him cry. and i was talking to mom when she got home last night and she said he told her that he shouldve saved grams. he shouldnt have let her die. so that made me cry. and uugh i dunno. shit happens i guess..

oh and i decided i love this song again:

Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waiting

And I wrote this letter in my head
Cuz so many things were left unsaid
But now you're gone
And I can't think straight

This could be the one last chance
To make you understand

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

Together we broke all the rules
Dreaming of dropping out of school
And leave this place
To never come back

So now maybe after all these years
If you miss me have no fear
I'll be here
I'll be waiting

This could be the one last chance to make you understand
And I just can't let you leave me once again

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

I close my eyes
And all I see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep
I can't forget you
Nanana (....)
And I'd do anything for you
Nanana (....)

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
There's nothing I won't do
I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

i loooove you <3

what i realllly meant to say is im sorry for the way i am

Tue, 17 May 2005 01:15:22 GMT

mmkay.

so last night mom picked us up from dads and we went to gina's party. and i saw my buddy. haha. it aws funny. i love having an ex who hates me live right by my fave cousin. seriously, it comes in handy. isnt it wierd how you always want to be seen by your exes? or is that just me? idk.. but whatever. i saw hiim. and it was funny.

oh and lets just keep this between you and me. but i think rob proposed to my mom. i dont know..but she was acting wierd at the party and then my aunt came over to her and was like how you feelin or somethin like that .. so i was like whats wrong with you tell me. and she was liek .. nothing..then aunt marilyn was like .. did you tell them yet? and mom shook her head. idk, suspicious. what do you think?

so then i almost started crying and didnt want to so i sent some texts. and texted pretty much all night. its addicting. i cant help it. we eventually left and i got here and just hung around. went to bed around 11ish.

we get to dress down all week. today i dressed for looks. tomorrow im dressing for comfort. hah i might just wear sweats for the rest of the week. i matched so well though. my purse matched my outfit. and then i even had a green and blue pen. people probably think im fruity, but i swear i didnt have the pen on purpse. lol

all i had for breakfast was OJ. and i was starving but i didnt have time to eat. and well katelyns moms a lifesaver. i walked up there and she gave me a cinnamon roll. mmmm. haha.

got to school. blah blah. haha so many people forgot to dress down. thats funny. i kinda had my voice back. not 100% yet though. holly had her prom pictures! aah gorgeous! i wanna go to prom! seriously i cannnot wait. and i better get asked. if i dont get asked i'll like be traumatized for life. mare told me you cant go stag to prom. haha

spanish * had that stupid test on direct & indirect objects .. gfsdjfhdsufhyrsdkl .. i hate those. and i effed up the true and false. uugh.

stufyhall * soo my phone vibrated real loud. that was embarrassing. i finally get algebra so i did that real quick and then i just sat there. and i daydreamed. its funny. hah. and mare slept. usually i sleep.

OT * whoaa she was in a baaaad mood today.

computers * ummm sub. will she ever be there for a whole week? shes missed the last 4 mondays. hah its funny. worked on marilyn monroe thing. its soooo cute. and texted a little.

lunch* two words: BRiCK WALL.

algebra* same old.

literature * i love her to death. but i dont like the odyssey. i dont like the monotone guy on the tape. but i do like how i'm one of the 5 freshmen that won that scholarship. lolol i knew i would. im a good writer =]. i knew my "8-10 sentence essay" would win.

bio * snoozer.

slept on the way home. i was soo tired. got on here. called andy but i didnt want to because of my voice. he said i didnt sound like a frog but i think he was just trying to be nice. lol. his baseball team has to have black gloves. every single one of them. wowowow.

then mom gave me hell about who i was talking to. aah wow why does she care!?

mmm then i took a shower and she told me i couldnt get back on here or do anything this weekend unless i clean my room.

asdgjdghkljgfhjgjkgh

shes reeeeallllyyy getting on my nerves. especially because shes keeping a secret from me. uuugh wow!

its so not cool being just us. well like my brothers here too but he doesnt count. everyones always liek ahh thats so cool youre like lorelai and rory from gilmore girls. well when your mom thinks shes cool .. its not cool at all. im so sick of it. seriously, get me outa here.

and okay now im done.

bye.

stole this from people who stole it from other people

Sun, 15 May 2005 20:48:17 GMT

1. First grade teacher's name: i started 1st grade in west virginia and cannot remember my teachers name. lol but when i moved up here i had mrs.kruk and then mrs.detesco because kruk had a baby! haha
2. Last person you kissed: mm..marty. i dont count that though
3. Last word you said: dylan
4. Last song you sang: the fairly oddparents song. my cousins were making fun of my voice so i sang to put them through hell.
5. Last person you hugged: someone in my family @ dylans party..i think derek
6. Last thing you laughed at: when i wrote about me singing fairly oddparents hah
7. Last time you said 'I love you': yesterday
8. What's in your CD player: all american rejects and taking back sunday
9. What socks are you wearing: none and my toes are painted pretty

10. What's under your bed: llllets not go there
12. Current taste: water
13. Current hair style: straight
14. Current clothes: green capris and a navy beater. haha i swear it matches.
15. Annoyance: i have no voice
16.Current longing: i dont really long for anything. a tropical snow would be nice i guess.
17. Current desktop picture: its pink and has stars and hearts. its cool like me =]

18. Current worry: what im wearing to gina's party

19. Current hate: my nails

20. Story behind your live journal username: hmm not sure. because no one who reads this will "keep my secrets"

21. Current favorite article of clothing: idk..i need to go shopping
22. Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: eyes, hair
23. Last CD that you bought: nooo clue. i think tbs. i have everyone burn cds for me. hah
24. Favorite place to be: hmm. school or out to eat with mare suz katelyn and zach. thats always fun..oorrrr my "secret spot" lol
25. Least favorite place: nowhere really
26. Time you wake up in the morning: well i set my phone to go off at 4:33. if i need to shower and straighten my hair in the morn. i'll get up then. but usually around 5.
27. If you could play an instrument, what would it be: GUITARRR. no questions asked
28. Believe in an afterlife: sure
29. Current favorite word/saying: ew. i guess? hah i dunno
30. Favorite book: not sure
34. One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: well shes not from MY past but i would loooove to talk to marilyn monroe. yeah i know shes dead
35. Favorite day: thursday and saturday
36. Where do you want to go: thats a stupid question. cincinatti
37. What is your career going to be like: doctor//lawyer//psychologist//physical therapist
38. How many kids do you want: maybe 4
39. What kind of truck will you have: i dont like trucks
40. Type a line you remember from any book: romeo oh romeo where for art thou romeo deny thy father and refuse thy name. hahahaha
41. A random lyric: little girl youre in the middle of the ride everything everything will be just fine everything everything will be alright
42. Eye Color: sometimes green sometimes brown. i dont have contacts hah theyre just wierd.
43. Hair Color: its def. getting lighter..
44. Righty or Lefty: rightayyy
45. Zodiac Sign: capricorn
46. Innie or Outtie: innie

DESCRIBE...
47. Your heritage: like alot italian. and irish and shit
48. The shoes you wore today: pink pointy toes.
49. Your hair: it needs cut. and its highlighted wierdly
50. Your weakness: a sweet talker
51. Your fears: being kidnapped
51. Your perfect pizza: not sure
52. One thing you'd like to achieve: sucess..like dr.phil kinda success.

WHAT IS..
53. Your most overused phrase on aim: eeew. haha.

54. Your thoughts first waking up: today better not suck
55. The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: eyes
56. Your bedtime: when i get tired
57. Your most missed memory: i dont know. alot i guess.

YOU PREFER...
58. Pepsi or coke: coke. pepsi def copies everything coke does. hah mare
59. McDonald's or Burger King: beeeekaaayyy
60. Single or group dates: hmm. group at first.
61. Adidas or nike: i think nike has cuter things. but when it comes to softball spikes--adidas
62. Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: the one with the snowman on it
63. Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate.
64. Cappuccino or coffee: aaah cappuchino. i love themmmm
65. Smoke: no way jose. yuck
66. Cuss: yeah
67. Sing: i try
68. Drink soda: not usually. i had my first one since february at the dance because i didnt like the water they had. =/
69. Have a crush: mm i think so
70. Who is he/she: wouldnt you like to know
71. Think you've been in love: i dont think so
72. Want to go to college: yeah
73. Like high school: not too shabby
74. Want to get married: yesss
75. Type with your fingers on the right keys: sometimes
76. Think you're attractive: i think i have my days
77. Think you're a health freak: no..but i AM a germ frreak
78. Get along with your parents: for the most part
79. Play an instrument: no =[ i wish i was "musically inclined" haha

IN THE PAST 3 MONTHS, DID YOU OR HAVE YOU...
84. Go on a date: mmm not sure
85. Eaten an entire box of Oreos: no i havent had an oreo in forever!
86. Eaten sushi: yeah but not in the last 3 months
87. Been dumped: mmm not really dumped.but if february was 3 months ago then yeah lol
88. Made homemade cookies: yeah
89. Been in love: not sure
90. Gone skinny dipping: no
91. Dyed your hair: i dyed my hair about 5 times in the last 3 months
92. Stolen anything: semi

HAVE YOU EVER..
93. Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: sorta
94. Been caught "doing something": yeah but it was a little something
95. Been called a tease: yeah
96. Gotten beaten up: hha mare gave me a black eye.
97. Changed who you were to fit in: no

GENERAL INFO...
98. my name is: delanie !
99. height: 5'1
100. favorite toe: i hate feet. eew
101. in the morning i am: slow
102. all i need is: love .. lol isnt that like a beetles song.
104. if i could see one person right now: he knows who he would be
105. i dream about: the same people all the time

MORE HAVE YOU EVER'S...
108. been in love: prob pretty close to it
109. cried when someone died: yesss. and even when i didnt know the person
110. lied: yes. but not anymore

WHICH IS BETTER...
111. flowers or candy: flowers. def flowers. i would LOVE it if someone sent me flowers.
112. tall or short: well not toooo tall.

OPPOSITE SEX...
113. last person u slow danced with: mm..billy golec lol

DO YOU EVER..
120. sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. you: yeah but if they dont after 5mins i get pissed and sign off haha
121. save aol/aim conversations: haha yeah. guilllty.
123. wish u were a member of the opposite sex: only sometimes. nothing even happens to guys. but i love bing a woman =]. remember that song!!!
124. cry because of someone saying something to you: yeah =/.

MORE Have You Evers...
125. fallen for your best friend: not my BEST friend
126. been rejected: hah yessss
127. rejected someone: yeah
128. used someone: yeah =[
129. been cheated on: yeah
130. cheated on someone: noo way
131. done something u regret: yeah but i have no regrets so im gonna forget about it

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
132. you talked to on the phone: andrew or my mom
133. hugged: derek. didnt i already answer that
134. you instant messaged: mare
135. instant messaged you: mare
136. you laughed with: my cousins

Do You...
137. color your hair: yeah
138. ever get off the computer: yeah
139. habla espanol: si, yo hablo espanol.

Do You/Are You...
142. could u live without the computer: nope

143. how many people are on your buddylist: 206 .. lol the 6 are on my mobile list because i cant fit anymore
144. what's your favorite food: tropical snows
145. whats your favorite fruit: strawberries i think
146. drink alcohol: yeah
147. like watching sunrises or sunset: looove watching them
148. what hurts the most, physical or emotional pain: emotional
149. trust others way too easily: no not at all.

THIS CHICK IS DELANIE D - E - L - A - N - I - E !

Sun, 15 May 2005 01:45:58 GMT

haha yeah. bananas is 7 letters & 3 syllables and so is my name =P

so first heres my saturday horoscope:

Trusting people won't come easy today. Be careful about labeling anyone a prime suspect though. Time will tell. This is an excellent day for gathering clues about someone that's peaked your curiosity. Get to know what makes 'em tick. Fire off those 21 Questions and get to the bottom of it all.

soooo true. im totally having second thoughts about something .. i dunno .. kinda shady... im starting to think someone doesnt wanna talk to me anymore. whatever though.

and this is from my show, dawsons creek: "Growing up sucks. Not all kisses are magical, and most boys don't live up to your expectations. But there are those times when everything- I mean love, romance, relationships-it all falls together; and it's incredible. It's those moments, no matter how depressingly few and far between, that make growing up worth it." -Dawson's Creek

thats also so true.

mm anyways everyones best friends again =]. that lasted long. haha so last night was the dance. yeah the "getting acquainted" dance. well lets just say im not liking too many of these new little freshmen. but thats prob what the sophmores thought of us. but anyways it wasnt too fun. but it was for extra credit. and i dont need the extra credit in OT and lit. i effing need it in algebra. btw, mr. pervboy persing was a chaperone. yeah eeew! hah mare. so we had to stay there for 2 hours to get credit. katelyn and me got there at 7:15. mare and suz got there late. so we had to stay there til 10 so theyd have their 2 hours in. i liked my outfit. haha. and katelyns mom didnt even know she left! aah. we picked her up and her mom calls and asks her what shes wearing..kate says .. the white skirt YOU bought me and my california shirt. haha her mom freaked out because she was wearing a shirt with writing. hahahh so funny.

my mom wouldnt let me wear my skirt because it wasnt "appropriate" for a school thing. since when is she like that!!? wowowow .. it was the skirt i wore for easter .. so its okay to wear a skirt up to my ass to church but not to school? mmkay mom. well my mom IS cool as far as talking about people goes. we talked about people like the whole ride there.

so we got there. and i figured out zach was only being mean to me to see how long it would last. im glad he fessed up because i was getting mad. mr. trent and mike were there! my fave new freshmen. hah prob the best looking too.. we just kinda hung around. katelyn wouldnt do the electric slide with me. and suzanne wasnt there yet. i KNOW she wouldve. =[ so eventually mare and her got there. we danced a little. talked alot.

btw, i have no voice. its pretty funny. and i think i overdosed on cough drops.

oh and to avoid further questioning --yes, i danced with billy golec. okay i COULD NOOTTT say no. how the hell could i have said no. a slow song came on and zach mare kate suz and me were standing there talking. and he was just standing there staring at me. then he was like "hey will you slowdance with me?" i was like .. s-ssuure. aaayeah. so to whoever EVER said i was mean--put that in your pipe and smoke it.

so then it was storming. and we had to cross wick to get to mares car. i was in a tanktop and freeeezing. so me katelyn and suzanne are all under zachs hoodie sprinting to her car. she got in the front and me zach kate and suz squeezed in the back. in that order, soo you know zach was doing everything possible to make us uncomfortable. haha. it was a fun car ride. i love mr.schmalzried. cool guy. even though he hates my grandpa. haha.

me: ahhhh its a greyhound! [voice sounding like a frog]

suzanne: no delanie..thats a WRTA

me: okay suzzzzzzzz

suzanne: okay u wanna have a beef i can take u from across the car.

haha we were delirious.

we were gonna go to jibjab but it was gonna close soon. so we went to perkins.we got there. and me mare and katelyn got this really cool cookie sundae thing. mmm carbs. haha. and suzanne got a sugar cookie. hahahaha. zach got nothing.

we were calling stevie bada and saying like "got milk?" because hes allergic or w/e. haha he was getting mad. so they would call back and SCREAM into the phone. and it was funny/annoying. so the next time they called katelyns phone i answered and they were screaming again. so i was like .. hiii there um we think youre from a mental hospital and you need to take your medicine..youre almost cool but not yet and we dont like you so stop calling this number. k byee.

then andrew called and he was upset about losing their championship track meet. GCL or somethin like that. they came in second by 1/2 a point. so he was really mad and i felt bad. that was a short conversation though because i sounded like a frog and then our food came.

zach put pepper in my water. so he gave me his. and i drank it the whole time. and then mare was like FINISH ITT. and was staring at me so i got suspicious and looked in the bottom. yeah her gum was there. i thought i was gonna throw up. thanks babe, i always wondered what gum from your mouth would taste like. hahahaha eeew grosss. i was grossed out. and then we made up songs about things and people. fun. and i was so out of it. then katelyns mom got there so we paid and left. mares dad brought the 3 of them and kates mom brought me home. it was still storming.

i got back to dads at a little after midnight. got on here. talked for a little. was a text whore til about 12:30-1:00. finally passed out in bed.

today dad dropped me off at hobby lobby to get poster stuff. i got sooo lost in there. and you'd never guess how many people in hobby lobby have staring problems. i HATE when people stare at me. or even look at me at all. and there was def a stalker going down every aisle i went down. so i called my dad and told him to come NOW. so that was that.

i came home and made my poster. it looked sweeeet. then later i had a glass of OJ and my phone was on the computer desk and it was on vibrate. and someone either called or texted me and i got scared and dropped my drink. and YESS it went alllll over my poster. it kinda dried. but it got kinda ruined. oh well. that took me forever to make. no way in hell am i redoing it.

then we went to moms for dylans bday party. it was alright. it was raining so no kickball game =[. kickball is like god in my family. aah i love having so many cousins.. i think jerrys getting out of his "i hate delanie" stage. we're only a year apart and i think hes so super cool. he likes my friend. yep mare schmalzried. he wont admit it. but i knowwww. dont worry jer. i'll hook you up. haha mare.

uum so i had fun i guess. i couldnt talk. i hate having carlie and lexi look up to me. i hope they dont turn out like me. theyve started wearing their hair like me and everything. oh and aunt laina told me char's son has a huge crush on me. aaah great. how awkward is this gonna be now. well i kinda knew he did. because you know you can tell when someone has something for you. but just..wow. that complicates like everyyyyything.

and this is turning out to be longer than i wanted. im back at dads and bored outa my mind. soo bye guys =]

P.S I FREAKIN WISH I LIVED IN CINCINATTI. UUUUUGGHHHHHH. I HATE THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS =[

THiS SHiT iS BANANAS

Fri, 13 May 2005 20:46:18 GMT

mkay. so i left off on like wednesdday i think? well whatever im starting with thursday so deal with it. nothing diff. in school. after school i went up to the baseball fields. and miss sara saterlee was there. hah shes so cool. TEXT MESSAGES .. AAH!!!

i think i've sent more texts in the last 3 days than i have in my whole 15 years of life. its fun though. and addicting. and its not like i go around texting everyone. hah okay.

so everyone at the fields prob thought i was the biggest flirt ever. and im not. but i was just hyper i guess. i was..well yeah..theres alot of boys who come to the concession stand. lolol. but yeah whatever. char's son jonothan hit 2 homeruns. so i signed his ball. --basball. it looked cool. then me and sara each painted one of his nails silver. fun stuff.

then came home and talked to mr.andrew caddell. HE SOUNDS LIKE MJ FROM THE REAL WORLD. no kidding. im so serious! i spent the first 15mins of talking to him trying to figure out who he sounds like. so i talked to him for 1 hour 13 mins and 46 seconds. hahahah i only know because it says on my phone. then texted a little and finally went to sleep. i slept at the other end of my bed because thats where the outlet is for my charger and my phones my alarm clock and i thought it'd die. well it was uncomfortable.

i woke up this morning feeling like shit. i "vomitted" 3 times and my throat hurt sooooo bad. i almost didnt go to school. but at that point i still wanted to go to the dance. so it was a dressdown day. i liked my outfit. i woke up at 4:30 to get a shower and straighten my hair. blah blah.

got to school and got pissed off. that ruined my day.
channel one- finished homework.
spanish-got back some tests. i got a 85% 97% and 100%. not to shabby
studyhall- sucked because i guess everyones fighting. whatever. slept and did some algebra
old testament- test and wrote danielle a much needed note. i feel better now.
computers- worked on that effing powerpoint. i actually think mines pretty cool. marilyn monroe was beautiful! aah i wish i looked like her.
lunch- i think the only word i said was "kinda" when suzanne asked if i miss softball
algebra- i MADE myself understand it today. i wasnt gonna leave that room til i got it. and i do. im pumped.
literature- stupid odyssey stuff
bio- disected starfish. um eeew

tonight i guess im goin to the dance. whatever.